Exactly one week to go- to the hour- until I'm off to Thailand! I AM SO EXCITED! I AM SO NERVOUS! I have literally no idea how to get myself ready for this trip and I'm kind of having a panic attack right now. If I take a step back though I realize that I've already done so many little things and taken so many baby steps to get this ball rolling... and things are kind of coming together.
Months ago (don't judge) I moved home with my parents. I didn't know if
I'd be doing this trip with Kim for sure (who was going with or without
me), but I knew that if I wanted to even have the chance to do it,
moving home for a few months would be key. Then the money saving
started. Then I started really talking to Kim about what she wanted to
do and let myself get a little excited- I think I even pinned a few
pictures of Thailand. Then I started thinking it was a terrible idea.
How could I possibly quit a job that I loved? How could I take off for an undetermined amount of time when I
was almost 30 and should be thinking about settling down and finding
someone to marry and have babies with (like everyone else on
Facebook)?? What if Kim got tired of me? What if there were sn@kes
there?? What if you really can't wear makeup because it just sweats off
your face?? I mean, there were a lot of reasons I figured I shouldn't
go. But then I figured out it was kind of now or never.
When was I ever going to have no lease, no house, no manfriend, no car
payments, no babies- nothing actually really holding me down? I
mean the true answer to those question is maybe never again, or maybe
next year- but the important part was that I had no idea. I just knew
that the timing was probably right, right now, so I decided to go all
in. I talked to my awesome boss and started planning when my last day
would be. I told my family I was really doing it (sorry mom but I promise I'll be safe!) I found an orphanage
in Cambodia we wanted to volunteer at. I BOUGHT A ONE WAY TICKET TO
THAILAND. I convinced my brother to go with me for the first 2 weeks! I
told everyone at work I was quitting my life to go on a walkabout! I
started buying things at REI. I got my first pair of ugly travel
sandals. Our friends had a going away dinner for us (thanks Megs!) I got a new fancy no-international fees bank account. I
started practicing wearing my hair naturally curly. I did a lot of
stuff! I still have so much more to do, but it helps to
remember what I've already done, and I guess I've really done all the
big stuff already. Now it's time to just tie it all in a nice bow and
take off. At exactly this very minute at 12:35pm in one week.